Thanks for joining us for Coffee Hour with Chicklit Power and
Faith Filled Friday with Trench Classes United and Ashley! Join us as she
shares her heart in this blog.
I have been talking a lot about how to redirect our thinking towards
God’s truth, and this week I get to talk about it again because I think God is
working out all my kinks when it comes to my thinking.
As I have been sharing this burden with God, He has been
revealing to me that I am leaning on my emotions too much and they have been
taking a great hold on me lately.
I’m learning that when I allow my emotions to take hold, the
enemy uses that vulnerability to slip inside my mind and spew his lies into the
lies I’ve already been telling myself. And then I remember versus such as Philippians 4:8: 8 Finally,
brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever
is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any
excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.
And then I’m fine…for the moment.
See, I could be just fine until one person says something that
makes me feel invisible, unloved, and, boom, the emotions flood in like a furious
storm that won’t let up, crashing over and over on me.
I try and come up for air for God’s truth and down I go, under
the water of my emotions again because the lies seem to be so valid and true as
they scream in my face. These emotions are bringing past hurts, anger and pain
back up, as if I had never surrendered them at the cross before. It’s a
physically, emotionally and spiritually exhausting battle.
This week, as I fought this battle, I cried and cried, asking Him
all of my whys, all the while it felt like Satan was laughing in my face. And
then the still small whisper of my Abba, “Come this way,” sent me desperately
holding tight to Him until another lie pulled me out of His presence.
This war raged for the entire day and into the night. If I
could only see the heavenly hosts in front of me in this war, a war I know now I
wasn’t fighting alone, and that God sent His fleet of angels to guard me as
these emotions, my flesh and the enemy try to take me down and destroy me. I
held tight and kept fighting and kept speaking Gods truth over me, and though
it was a drawn-out war that felt at the time that I would lose, His whispers of
love spoken over me, over and over again, and His perfect truths He guided me
to led me to victory over this battle of the mind. John 14:27 (ESV): 27 Peace
I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give
to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid.
Trying to understand the whys of our life brings us down and
causes us great confusion, hurt, pain, and uncertainty of our worth. But what I
know to be true is that they have a heavenly eternal purpose; they make you and
me more than we could have ever become without them. Without these whys we’d
never lean so desperately into our Heavenly Father, for we know there’s nothing
else that can set us free.
The good news is I came out of that night renewed in God’s love,
revived, and encouraged.
Remember, Coffee Hour friend, when there’s a battle going on in
your mind, listen for the whispers of His love and the guidance of His truths.
Love,
Ashley
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