Faith Filled Fridays

Welcome back everyone to another Faith Filled Friday... 

Have you ever fallen…and looked up to see others not only looking but laughing? Well, I have, just the other day, and as I fell in front of a bunch of people and heard the giggles... a thought came to me. 

When I fail, when I fall... doesn't it really offer proof of my dedication to keep trying? That I am still working hard toward a better life? Surely if a wave had an epiphany to realize it is not a mere wave but in essence the ocean itself... then maybe even one's clumsy falls have an enlightenment to itself as well? The act of getting up itself is a mighty spiritual thing.  

I am trying to add positive things to the negative thoughts that sometimes pour from my mind. Instead of an explanation point at the end with negativity, I am really trying to emphasize the good that is coming because of it. One of my goals in this life is to try and get to a point where I direct more feelings of happiness and positive directions instead of only redirecting the bad that has happened. It's a start to change the mindset and this is a different step. 

I admit this is very difficult step for me. I have so many things go wrong and I feel the failure in deep emotions... but hey my friendly morning crows will still show up in the morning... LOL Ha'... see I just did it. :) Seriously, though, I have two crows that come by every morning. It seems that I have earned their friendship and have earned their trust. I feed them some grapes and popcorn.... I just know that they look forward to seeing me.

Lately when something happens to me that really hurts me, I finish the sentence or statement by putting that out there about those two crows. I have no doubt that God has sent them my way. At least I hope He did, for they have been a much needed source of comfort.  

Trying to be more positive for me is a sort of homecoming I want to realize in my own life. Thriving...fishing for an ending that shows hope, and redirects energy to at least realize a possibility that despite what might be holding me down, or holding me back might just be a resistance much like a head wind where thought it is grueling, soon enough more muscle helps you push through. A place where once you push through, you find yourself upon that enlightened wave that realize its true genetic structure is so much more... the ocean within me.

Much love as always everyone...

~John