Nana Holds: Coffee Confession Part 2

Coffee Hour @ Chicklit Power...

Happy Wednesday to you and thanks so much for taking time out of your day to have coffee with me and share more of this series which is slowly coming to an end. Oh, how I wish I could drag it out and savor the beauty of it all. Grab your coffee and come join me and my girlfriend. I’ve just put a confession out there on the table!

With my fears exposed and out there for me to look at, I breathed a sigh of bittersweet relief.

“How ironic, huh?” I said to my girlfriend, almost with a chuckle.

“What do you mean?”

“Well, a year and a half ago, I wanted nothing to do with any of it, especially participating in raising a little one.” I stayed stuck on that truth for a few seconds, allowing it to soften my heart and allay my fears. “And now I want things to stay right where they are.”

A heavy sigh escaped again.

“I remember that,” my friend confirmed.

“Yeah, if anyone says God doesn’t have a sense of humor, they don’t really know Him.”

We sat there for some time, reminiscing about the difficult transitions we each had passed through, bringing with the passage an understanding of the difficulty of marriage, revealing us both desperately seeking to stay in our own lanes and not crash into our husband’s. She had been one person I had shared with during that difficult thirty-day trial because God had joined us in friendship with the common denominator: we were both in the throes of a difficult marriage, riding the roller-coaster of emotions that come with the reality and necessity for self-growth while trying desperately to hang on in our own car and not try and fix and/or change our spouse.
                                                                                                                                     He loves his
                                                                                                                                    cooooookies!

God knew my heart then, and He certainly knows the desire of it now; that my life would do the speaking so my words don’t hinder His will or work in my life and the lives of those He puts in my path. I yearn to allow my transparency and my desire for truth to be used for His glory and not mine, that it would encourage and equip others toward a deeper walk with Him.

What my friend said next rendered me faith-filled and fueled once again because you see, she had been coming to our events, had admitted to not liking church growing up and not raising her daughter in church, but little by little, her heart was changing and so were many of her choices, and therefore her life was transforming before my very eyes. She had not yet accepted Christ as her Savior but her life and her heart were headed that way. God used her that day to remind me of one of my very favorite life verses that, like all the others, has been proven to be true in each and every one of my circumstances, confirming that He does work ALL things together for my good and His glory.

Very matter-of-factly she said: “Well, He’s not going to leave you now. He’s brought you this far. It’s just another change.”

Oh, Coffee Hour friend, we have just a few coffee hours left with this series and let me say now that I wish I could share with you all the changes that are still taking place, but that will have to wait until He opens the door for Nana Prays, and I know He will because it’s another season of growth that I’m currently walking through and until I get through it, I can’t share it because I don’t have all the lessons from it learned quite yet.

In the meantime, join me tomorrow for more of what I am able to share in Nana Holds, 

Evinda

Nana holds . . . in her heart