Wednesday’s Word
The heart is
deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked. Who can know it?
Thanks for
joining us for Coffee Hour with Chicklit Power and Wednesday’s Word with Trench
Classes United. Grab your coffee and your strand of faith. Trust me when I say
that this Word definitely tied a knot in my faith…and in my heart! I actually
wrote this last year, but oh, its truths are timeless!
Have you
ever bought into the lies your mind tries to speak into your life?
A couple of
weeks ago, it was crunch time; everything was coming at me at once, just like
every other time right before jumping into the trenches with others to get
better at life and love. This time was different, though. My heart was heavy,
and had been for a few weeks. It wasn’t until the day of class, just hours
before it was supposed to start, that I realized why. One by one all of the
silent questions I had been asking myself over the preceding weeks began to
surface, questions that planted seeds in my heart: “Why is this so hard?” “If
this was really of/from God, surely I wouldn’t be this stressed out so maybe –
well more than maybe -- I’m on the wrong path.” “Maybe I made this whole crazy journey up. Maybe I’m supposed to just go
back to working as a court reporter and forget this whole ministry thing.”
Before long,
I was convinced of all the lies I filled my heart, and it didn’t take time
until my heart had convinced me they were true…and I began to “feel” these
truths! What an incredibly sneaky process. The heart really can beat against
you!
I did drop
to my knees before class, asking Him to help me, to get me thru this first
night, to reveal HIS heart to me, entwine His heart with mine so I could test
if all I was “feeling” was accurate…or not. I surrendered all the questions and
showed up for class, despite all the lies I had bought into and not wanting to
or feeling like it, and let me tell you, so did HE…show up that is!
We had 43
registered and five walk-ins! It was amazing, encouraging and a great way to
give the enemy a sucker punch!
It wasn’t
until sitting in church the Sunday after that I got sucker-punched with this
verse, a verse I had always questioned, and not fully understood. How could the
heart be wicked? Isn’t that where love resides? I just love how He ministers to
us just the way we need it, when we need it for the reasons we need it!
See, the
heart only knows what we tell it so therefore, if we buy some lies and deposit
them in there, the heart will take them, just like a thief, and deposit them
into our emotional being and rob us of so much…so very much.
Are you
catching what I’m throwing? Oh, let me tell you, my heart was definitely
depositing every last one of those stinking-thinking thoughts and questions and
dropping them in there like a swooshed-in basket ball, nice and heavy they
dropped right in! Before I realized what
happened, my heart had taken those lies to the bank, and robbed me of all my
joy and confidence in my calling.
What sort of
lies is your heart trying to get you to buy? Oh, that we wouldn’t even lend an
ear to things that are not of Him, and not be fooled by the robber who waits to
steal our joy and derail us from our calling. Instead, may we be a people that
drop to their knees and give those lies up!
With my
heart cleaned…
Kim-Evinda
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